Saturday, July 7, 2007

Saturday Gratefulness

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am...*

This song, the first 4 lines, they never fail to give me the shivers in a good way. I have not had a "perfect" life, and that is just perfect. I am at a place in my life of learning to fall in love with myself and not look for happiness from another person. I am cultivating the happy inside me. A year ago, I was not aware it was even there. My endless search for love, peace, and happiness has finally led me to the place where it's been all along...within me.

What prompted all this reflection is I was kinda blue this morning. Alot of it is PMS, but some of it was just a little too much OPD (Other People's Drama) going on this week. I realize that even though I was able to just say no to it (yay me) I still find it quite irritating and draining. So around 9:30 I pulled my daily Angel card and today's message was Ground Yourself. So, I promptly packed up some knitting and headed down to the backyard with the dogs and now several hours later (nope, it wasn't all knitting time, got a shower in there too and some cleaning) I am feeling peaceful again and grounded.

So if you couldn't already tell from this post thus far...I have decided to open my blog up to more than just my knitting life and share on a more personal level when that feels right. I write alot in my paper journal, but every now and then it feels good to go beyond the superficial a bit.

I wanted to take pics earlier to post also but the camera wasn't charged...so I will try and get some pics up tomorrow.

Today I am grateful to the people, places and experiences that have brought me to where I am right now. What are you grateful for?

*lyrics from The Story by Brandi Carlile

5 comments:

NH Knitting Mama said...

Melissa,

I'm glad you opened up in your post. It is all too easy to get caught up in other people's drama, and I'm glad you're in a better place. Periods of emotional growth are wonderful.

Lora said...

Melissa my dear, I am grateful for you and your friendship. Knowing out pup is being loved is such a comfort while we are away for this length of time. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Brandi!!! She'll be coming to NH in August! Brent and I wanna go! We went to Boston to see her, remember when we took the boys on the T and saw her at Borders. Awesome lyrics!! I agree!

SleepyEyes said...

I loved this post. I really did. I love that you are sharing more than knitting.

And I love the Angel cards, too. For a while, they were my inspiration and my guidance. Even though I've gotten out of the habit of using them now, I still feel like having them helped me through some really hard times. I'm glad they help you, too.

What am I grateful for? Well, any day that I feel good with no headaches, spontaneous hugs and kisses from my children, understanding from my husband, the support and fanastic energy of my close friends (you included!) and every single day that I'm able to get up out of bed and take part in the world. I am SO grateful.

NH Knitting Mama said...

Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you today. Hope you're feeling better.

MsJamie said...

I am grateful that every day I wake up with another chance to make better choices in my life, and for the inspiration and support of my dear friends like you. Have a great day, Melissa!!