Thursday, July 5, 2007

Saying Goodbye Sucks

*WARNING* this is not likely to be a happy post. If you are not in the mood to be bummed out, skip it.

It's so not fair that our pets are with us for such a brief time. I have said good bye to way to many furry
children...Misty Kitty, Spook, Oodie, Uunic, Willie, Angel, Pepper, Jasmine, Big Feet, Poof, Erica, Ellen...and today, Matasha. I haven't actually seen her in over a year. She had a good home for herself with a former roomate that I am no longer in touch with. She came to us in December, 1993 - supposedly she was pregnant, it was right before Christmas (12/23/93) and I took her in as a foster from the shelter. Cindi was 5 at the time and named her Matasha. A month went by and she got smaller, so I took her to the vet, he shaved her and said, yah, this cat has been spayed...turns out when she was stressed out she puffs up and looks pregnant...so we kept her.
The old roomie e-mailed me like 6 months ago saying that the cat had some bloodowork done and did I want to know if the results were anything to be concerned about. I replied yes, but never heard anything. Today she e-mails me out of the BLUE to say that the cat wasn't doing well and had kidney issues, yada yada yada and she was probably going to have to put her down this afternoon. So, energetically I said goodbye, and her current roomie and friend of mine let me know that yes, it was her time and they buried her in the
backyard...I often thought of bringing her here to Manchester to live, but she would have had to be an indoor cat here and I couldn't bear to do that to her, she would have been miserable. So, my last kitty is gone. I feel guilty that I so easily left her behind 4 years ago...oh, to be able to go back and make different choices, but that is another story.
Anyway, before that depressing news, today was a good day. I find that I am changing in so many ways, and it's not a bad thing at all!
Bye TashiBmeemoomoo...I am so glad you spent today enjoying sunpuddles and will always remember waking up with you wrapped around my head purring...love you...

6 comments:

Lora said...

Hugs!!! Saying goodbye just plain sucks!

NH Knitting Mama said...

I'm sorry you had to get news like that today.

SleepyEyes said...

Oh, so sad....big hugs to you, M...HUG.

MsJamie said...

I'm so sorry, dear.

yarnophiliac said...

Don't feel bad about leaving her, Melissa. We do what is best for them out of love, whether they ever know our reasons. I am so sorry for your loss -- she was beautiful!

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