Decisions, Decisions...

The first one is easy, but I need your help. Over on the right there is a poll to help me decide on which e-mail I want to use as my new main e-mail address. racingspirit is ready to be retired for a couple of reasons. For one thing, I'm not as into Nascar as I was when I chose the account, and secondly, the account resides on someone else's comcast account, and I would prefer to have it reside on my own account. I think I know which one I want...and maybe there will be a prize offered to a random responder!

The second decision is not so easy. Tonight when I was walking Rusty down the road, I heard some loud yelling and swearing. I wasn't wearing my glasses, so it took me a minute to locate the source. Now this past summer, I mentioned the crack house across the street. Well, karma is a beautiful thing and the person I suspected was selling drugs over there has been in jail since late summer on a burglary charge. So all has been quiet. And the tenement on the corner? It would seem all the screamers moved out recently. So like I said, things have been very quiet here. But back to the yelling. I saw the guy who lives a few doors down from me hanging out his front door smoking and yelling and screaming back in at his family. He went back inside, only to come tearing back out, flinging the screen door open very wide so it hit the side of the house, slamming the inside door violently and screaming at the top of his lungs "I have to ing do everying thing around here you ing bitch. Now, ok, that's bad enough that he is spewing such venom out into the street. But then the next words out of his mouth were "I'll kill you all, I swear I will." And I felt this cold block of ice in my middle. I could not believe that a person would actually say that. About their family. He saw me and he looked away. I kept walking and I very calmly said "You know you don't mean that." He never said a word. Finished his smoke and went inside. So what do I do with that? Do I think the guy would actually harm his family? No. Not really. He is volatile and I have heard him go off at his teenage sons and his wife. He's not a very nice guy, nor is he a very happy guy. And the thing is, they live in the best house in the neighborhood. Nice white, middle-income, model family to all outward appearances. But now I get to live with the knowledge that I heard those words come out of his mouth. What if? I hope not. I tend to think it's the ones you never suspect would that actually do. And then I think, who would I tell anyway?

As much as I love my apartment, I am hoping that at this time next year I will be in a position to move back out to the country, or at least the 'burbs.